The ramblings of that girl called Ebs

A Brain Vomit in Blog Form

Maybe she’s born with it

Maybe she’s born with it

Maybelline tells me my skin colour is medium beige.

My ancestry is black.

My father is white.

I didn’t ask to be trapped in this middle ground.

I can’t deny who I am.

I am black.

My spirit is black.

My spirit is the spirits of 60,000 years of ancestors.

Your thoughts of me should be irrelevant

But your words still hurt.

How can you say love,

That you love me

When you can’t understand me?

That I…

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My student is a blogger!

My student is a blogger!

Me and Jahsana at Soul of Sydney

Jahsana and I at Soul of Sydney

Can’t tell you how excited I was to find out my student/gorgeous lil sista from the States, Jahsana, is a blogger also.

She, like all the students from NAU, made a huge impression on me in the short time they were here and so you can imagine my delight when she posted a link to her blog on facebook this morning encouraging her friends and fam to read about her…

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Let’s AIME to stop changes to the Racial Discrimination ActThe finalists for AIME’s the other election competition with their families
At some time today,…View Post

Let’s AIME to stop changes to the Racial Discrimination Act

The finalists for AIME’s the other election competition with their families

At some time today,…

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My glares burn through her.
And I’m sure that such actions aren’t foreign to her
because the essence of her beauty is, well, the essence of beauty.

And in the presence of this higher being,
the weakness of my masculinity kicks in,
causing me to personify my wannabe big-baller, shot-caller,
God’s gift to the female species with shiny suit wrapping rapping like,
“Yo, what’s crackin shorty how you livin’ what’s your sign what’s your size I dig your style, yo.”

Now, this girl was no fool.
She gives me a dirty look with the quickness like,
“Boy, you must be stupid.”
so I’m looking at myself,
“Boy, you must be stupid.”
But looking upon her I am kinda feelin’ her style.

So I try again.
But, instead of addressing her properly,
I blurt out one of my fake-ass playalistic lines like,
“Gurl, you must be a traffic ticket cuz you got fine written all over you.”
Now, she’s trying to leave and I’m trying to keep her here.
So at a final attempt, I utter,
“Gurl, what is your ethnic makeup?”

At this point, her glare was scorching through me,
and somehow she manages to make her brown eyes
resemble some kinda brown fire or something,
but there’s no snap or head movement,
no palm to face, click of tongue, middle finger,
roll of eyes, twist of lips, or girl power chant.
She just glares through me with these burning eyes
and her gaze grabs you by the throat.

She says, “Ethnic makeup?”
She says, “First of all, makeup’s just an anglicized, colonized, commodified utility
that my sisters have been programmed to consume,
forcing them to cover up their natural state
in order to imitate what another sister looks like in her natural state
because people keep telling her
that the other sister’s natural state is more beautiful
than the first sister’s natural state.
At the same time,
the other sister isn’t even in her natural state,
because she’s trying to imitate yet another sister,
so in actuality, the natural state that the first sister’s trying to imitate
wasn’t even natural in the first place.”

Now I’m thinking, “Damn, this girl’s kicking knowledge!”
But, meanwhile, she keeps spitting on it like
“Fine. I’ll tell you bout my ‘ethnic makeup.’
I wear foundation,
not that powdery shit,
I wear the foundation laid by my indigenous people.
It’s that foundation that makes it so that past being globalized,
I can still vocalize with confidence that i know where my roots are.
I wear this foundation not upon my face, but within my soul,
and I take this from my ancestors
because I’ll be damned if I’d ever let an American or European corporation
tell me what my foundation
should look like.”

I wear lipstick,
for my lips stick to the ears of men,
so they can experience in surround sound my screams of agony
with each lash of rulers, measuring tape, and scales,
as if my waistline and weight are inversely proportional to my value as a human being.
See my lips, they stick, but not together.
Rather, they flail open with flames to burn down this culture that once kept them shut.
Now, I mess with eye shadow,
but my eyes shadow over this time where you’ve gone at ends to keep me blind.
But you can’t cover my eyes, look into them.
My eyes foreshadow change.
My eyes foreshadow light.
and I’m not into hair dyeing.
but I’m here, dying, because this oppression won’t get out of my hair.
I have these highlights.
They are highlights of my past atrocities,
they form this oppression I can’t wash off.
It tangles around my mind and twists and braids me in layers,
this oppression manifests,
it’s stressing me so that even though I don’t color my hair,
in a couple of years it’ll look like I dyed it gray.
So what’s my ethnic makeup ?
I don’t have any.
Because your ethnicity isn’t something you can just make up.
And as for that crap my sisters paint on their faces, that’s not makeup, it’s make-believe.”

Slip of the Tongue by Adriel Luis.

See also this Pocahontas + spoken word mashup -

You guise can let me know if the term Indians is ok…. something tells me it might be the outdated term just like how we don’t use the term Aborigine

You guise can let me know if the term Indians is ok…. something tells me it might be the outdated term just like how we don’t use the term Aborigine

Sussing out who’s who in the zoo in 2011

Conversation with my housemate/sista/jija girl.

Me: Do you know so-and-so? I mean, I think she might be Indigenous

K: Nah but look her up on facebook - if she is you’ll probably have like 50 mutual friends.

Among the many race-obsessed expressions in his offensive, and now, unlawful, columns was the accusation that the defendants, all ”fair-skinned” Aboriginal people, claimed to be Aboriginal to receive certain benefits. As every person who has been raised by an Aboriginal parent knows, we must be ”twice as good as the white man” to finish school and get a job and suffer endless racist slurs while doing so from idiots who say things like, ”You don’t look Aboriginal. Why don’t you identify as white?”

What are our children and grandchildren to say to these fools? Deny their mothers, fathers, siblings, grandparents, and other family members because one of Bolt’s ilk is offended by their Aboriginal identity?